Let's get real.
2018 has been a wild ride already babes! So much has happened in these last few months that has changed who I am, where my business is headed, and what my future looks like. I stepped away from blogging for a bit to focus on both personal and business growth, but now I'm back! I'm inspired, motivated, and excited!
Now let's get real. Things have been a little interesting around here. I have gone through some relationship changes, some business changes, and some personal struggles. Navigating the ups and downs of love, life, and small business have been a challenge for sure, but each experience and every day has made me stronger, and is bringing me closer to my goals.
I'll be honest here, I have been putting some serious effort into connecting with people, into seeking a partner, and into navigating an aspect of my life that has not been considered for quite some time. While focusing on finishing college and growing my business, I took some time to remove the word "dating" from my vocabulary. I spent time alone, I worked on myself, and I grew as a person. This year, January 1st, 2018, I woke up feeling ready. Ready for love, ready for new relationships, and ready to start experiencing life in a different way. I've been on dates, I've connected with people, made new friends, and have been challenged in new ways. I am thankful for the experiences I have had so far this year, and I am hopeful for the ones that I have yet to have. One thing I continue to learn on this journey is that you cannot force anything. It has always been a tough lesson for me when things seem to be going so right, and then suddenly they seem to go wrong. One of my favorite ways to get through life's hiccups is to tell myself that everything happens for a reason. With every ounce of my being, I do believe this to be true. Every experience, person you meet, and challenge you face has been brought you to by something way beyond your understanding. I believe you must trust in your journey, and that the things meant for you will come along and stay. The things not meant for you will leave, but will leave you with lessons, with growth and understanding, and with a new perspective. It is an incredible thing to learn from others, to share with others, and to feel new emotions. Sometimes you will find yourself heartbroken, but never will you leave a situation without learning something about yourself. You learn that you can be strong, you can be open, and you can love. You can love others, and you can love yourself. Keep on living and loving babes!
On a health cleanse
Mentally checked out some days
Social media queen
Spends way too much time on cell phone
Stress is my middle name
Basically, I am working through one of those phases in your life where things are working themselves out, where you must be patient, and where some days all you want to do is lay in bed and do nothing at all. Relatable? 🙋🏼
I'm still here, I'm still working towards my goals and dreams, but my pace is a little slower than usual. I believe this is when I am most inspired to write, to share, to relate to others. I enjoy hearing the experiences of others, and considering all of the life that they have lived, and all that I still have left to live. There are so many experiences that await us, and when we get stuck on one day, one week, or one month that may not have gone our way, we do not allow room for these experiences to catch us, to change us, to give us exactly what we have been seeking all along.
Let's consider confidence. How many of us actually wake up every day and feel confident, happy, excited, and hopeful? It is unrealistic to think that every day will begin that way. Some days we are ready to jump up and face the day, and others we like to sit a while longer and contemplate our direction, our intentions, and our reasons.
Direction, intentions, reasons you wonder...
Your why. Your goals. Your motivation.
What is it? Who is it?
We all have things that keep us up at night, and we also have things that get us out of bed in the morning. Sometimes they are the very same thing.
Is it love? Is it family? Is it small business?
Maybe it's all three.
Waking up yesterday was a challenge. I wasn't feeling my best or feeling myself. I allowed myself a few moments to be sad. I allowed myself a few moments to feel lost, to pity myself, and to be negative. Sometimes in order to move past certain feelings you have to actually feel them. Let them overcome you, but do not dwell. Feel them, and then release them.
Yesterday I took the day off from work, spent some time alone, got a massage, did a mediation before bed, and slept like a baby.
I woke up refreshed, with a new sense of purpose, seeking new relationships, goals, and intentions. I'm motivated again, inspired, and ready to face the day, the week, and the rest of this year. Will this feeling last? Probably not, but that's life. We have the bad times to make the good times that much better. We have the battles and scars to make us stronger. We have the relationships that do not work out to make us appreciate the ones that do. My dear friends, whatever you are going through, whatever you are facing, it won't last. So here is my advice to you.
Feel what you are feeling. Be present where you are. Kick, scream, cry, lock yourself in your room and just be.
Now pick yourself up, wipe your tears, and remind yourself that you have lived this long through heartbreak, struggle, sadness, fear, rejection, and failure, and you can keep going. You have made it, you will continue to make it, and you are worth it. Go get em babes! This is your life, your time is now, and nobody else is going to make this life of yours exactly what you want it but YOU!