Best week ever! Naturally, I cried.
Today was interesting. I cried.
The problem is, is that this week, this week has been the best of my life. Wonder why? This week was the best, because this week, I finally felt like a business owner, I finally felt like I had some control, and I felt like things were looking up. This week I received a lot of praise for the things that I have done. The compliments, reviews, and sweet messages affirming that my creativity was well received and people actually enjoy what I do, were welcomed with open arms. As a small business owner who offers a little piece of themselves every time they create something and send it out into the world, there is no greater reward than hearing how much your product was loved. Sometimes it is hard to go a length of time without reassurance in a business like this. It can be hard to tell if you are following the right path and are well received by your audience, but that you are also following your heart and are satisfied with that. The progress I have made with my business this week has fortunately made me more excited for the future of this creative endeavor than ever before. Doors are opening up. Things are moving in different directions, and although I might not know where I will end up, I am curious and ready to explore.
Progress, not perfection.
This week was not only progressive for my business, but in many personal aspects also. I made great progress at the gym, I faced some of my fears, and I challenged myself to change things that were holding me back. Yep, just this week. I let go this week. I let go of fearing what others would say. I let go of the anxiety of reaching success. (Yes, that's a thing.) I let go of things that were weighing me down and making life more difficult. Things like stress and uncertainty. I gained things too. I gained more confidence in myself and my abilities. I gained a more solid perspective on my direction, and I gained more strength both mentally and physically. It hasn't been easy to get to this point, but it was well worth it to have a blissful week of understanding and acceptance.
So how did I get here? How did I get to today, and an overwhelming set of emotions that led to tears? Well, not every day can be sunshine and roses, but sometimes when you feel so much good, that can be overwhelming too. Too much perfect a bad thing? Sometimes.
Sometimes a whole week of perfection needs a day of reflection. Want to know something? Tears aren't a bad thing. A good cry is often necessary to cleanse away negativity, to positively release emotions that are holding you back, and to start fresh.
Was that an eyelash in your eye or are you just upset someone else got the last glazed donut?
No, crying doesn't mean you are weak, or a cry baby, or a terrible adult. So yes, today, I cried. I cried because I was frustrated. I cried because I haven't had a donut in weeks due to my extended sugar detox. ( Yep, still doing that, and I cried over a donut. You would too.) I cried because I was confused. I cried because I am human. I am not ashamed that I show emotions, and I am definitely not ashamed to share it. Want to know something else? As I am writing this now, I feel fantastic. I feel relaxed, refreshed, and even excited. Today, I started fresh. I am ready to face tomorrow and all of the exciting things that I am working on this coming week.
Best week ever!
If there is something that I wish you would take away from this it's this... No matter what is going on in your life, good and bad, sometimes it is ok to get overwhelmed. It is ok to cry even when everything seems to be going right and sometimes the best week of your life that ends in tears is preparing you for all of the amazing things that are coming your way.