A letter to...my future self.
Well first off let's say congratulations, because you made it. Some days you didn't know if you would, or if you even could. I am so proud of you. I know that you have worked so hard to get to where you are now, mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually. It's tough, this life we live. It can get you down. It drags you through the mud, it rains on your parade, and then it hands you the most beautiful flowers.
I'm sure you have had your share of ups and downs, but I know you handled it like a champ, you always do. You have always exhibited tremendous amounts of growth, and I know by now that you have exceeded your own expectations. Years ago we never thought that we would be here. When you get down, you get really down. Sometimes you don't feel like you can pick yourself up, but damn girl, you always do. I hope that you have stuck to your plan of living life to the fullest. I hope you learned to say yes to new experiences more, and no to the things that hurt your heart. I hope you have continued to learn to let others in, but to not let them bring you down. I hope you have continued to love yourself as you have slowly learned to do. I hope you still exercise often, treat your body well, and maintain your mental health also. We know how important that is.
Please tell me that you have adapted to living with your anxiety, as we know that is something we are mostly stuck with. I also hope that you are happy. I know that you have worked so hard to not let the little things get to you. I know that you have worked to learn to see the flaws in others and accept that how they treat you often has nothing to do with you. I hope you have accepted your own flaws, especially any that you may have developed over the course of living and loving as you do.
Speaking of, I hope that you have found love. Whether it be with someone else, or with yourself. You know how important your relationship is with yourself. Keep on loving who you are, who you have always been, and who you are becoming. You are beautiful person. Remember that. Remember what grandma told you "You have a beautiful heart Jessica." She was right. I hope that nobody has taken that away from you. I know we have been through hell and back, but you never let that change how you treat yourself, or how you treat others. How they treat you is a reflection them, not you, and vice versa, remember that.
Wherever your career path has taken you, I hope you are in love with everything about it. I hope you continued to choose the path that inspired you, challenged you, and brought out the best in you. I know you loved work most when it was something creative. Please tell me you still do. I hope that nobody has taken that joy away from you, and that you still find time to do creative things for yourself.
Remember to always give yourself more than you give others. You don't like the feeling of being drained, and I know you enjoy caring for others, but how can you if there is nothing left in the end? I hope that even on bad days that you have continued to hold onto hope of a brighter day, of this day. Of the day when things finally fall into place. Of the day when it all makes sense. Of the day when you can say I made it. Good luck with your journey. I know you will make it a great one. Keep up the good work and remember to trust your intuition, it has taken you this far.